Monday, May 10, 2010

A dark time and daddy to the rescue

Don't ever get me wrong, I love my father to death! he has ALWAYS been there for me when I needed him and I know he will always be there for me.

When I was 10 I remember going over to my friends house. He lived two houses from me. His brother [Jason], who just moved here from El Salvador took a strong liking to me. I have no idea why though. I was not the cutest person in the world,nor was I the skinniest, but he sure did take a liking to me. If it hadn't been for my journal and my dad snooping in my room I might have gotten myself into a huge mess.

You see Jason was in 11th grade when I was in 8th. All he wanted to do was kiss me, litterally this pervert would make this puckered "kissy" face at me. We would all hang out: my two friends, Jason, and I. Jason would really freak me out when we were all hanging out because he would always want to sit next to me, or have me lay next to him. [Please, you must note, I was 10 and I had no idea about sexual assault or harassment. I only though "wow, he must like me."]

I never knew what to do, all I knew was that my family couldn't find out. Well, my dad did find out and he flipped his lid. Which I am kind of glad he did find out.

Spaghetti Story

Yes, this is a funny title to name a story but it will become understood why the name is so.

I was at the park one day, sitting on this boulder... there were two next to each other that everyone would climb and sit on. My best friend's cousin (who later became my crush) came over to the park to throw out a garbage bag that didn't fit in their can. We started talking for a while, totally bull sh*tting. Just having a good time. I was maybe 12 or 13 at the time.

Well, the guy decided to start spinning the bag of garbage around. The inevitable happened- the bag broke. It sent garbage flying everywhere, mostly towards me. The next minute the only thing I felt was slimy gooey crap on me. I freaked out because I now had someone's left over thrown out, rotting spaghetti all over me.

It took two showers and half a bottle of shampoo to get all of it (and the smell) out of my hair.

That awkward first boyfriend.

Every girl has had at least on boyfriend that they feel so weird to be around, no matter how much they like them.

Seventh grade, we started dating by a written message passed between lunch tables. His to mine, mine to his, his to mine so on and so forth. Immediately it became awkward.

After a week or two the only thing we would to was hug, (remember I was only in 7th grade) he walked me home once and all my friends told me to walk him to the driveway. I thought we may kiss and got really nervous: sweaty palms, nervous giggle- you know the routine. All he did was turn around and hug me.

A little while later rumors spread of how he kissed his brother. His freaking BROTHER. Yes, I know now that it probably was just a rumor but come one... it freaked me out. HIS DANG BROTHER. Anyways, that pretty much was the end of that relationship.

Her Promise

She walks into the classroom,
and sits in her chair.
Her eyes are blood red;
you know she’s not really there.
“Are you ok?”
We all ask and say.
She looks at us and starts to speak.
“I am fragile, oh so weak.
I have seen two twins fall,
those that once stood very tall.”
We look at her,
It all seems a blur.
“We do not understand,
please relax, and take our hand,
tell us of this unfortunate event,
we know it may not be that pleasant.”
She looks at us,
her face pale white.
She looks like she’s facing a battle,
a mental fight.
“Our freedom is over,
I fear they’ve won.
The army is called,
this sick game isn’t fun.”
A tear slides down her cheek,
for those strong and those weak.
She walks over to the TV.
“I want to give you all a chance to see.”
She turns it on,
Voices cry out, a morning song.
In the darkness nothing is seen,
nothing is heard, but muffled screams.
“If you can only imagine all the lives that were lost.
Just try to imagine the pain, suffering and total cost.”
At the TV we blankly stare,
who are we not to care?
All these lives, turning cold,
in the immobility of death, its grasp and its hold.
A girl my age turns away from the horrid scene,
“This is so cruel, so cold, so mean”
A tear slides down another's cheek
for her father was working in that building this week.
Her eyes get blurry and she starts to cry
we all are upset, we just don’t know why.
Our jaws drop, looking outside,
the sky turns cloudy and dark,
No sound can be heard not even a dogs bark.
Pieces of debris fly though the air.
No one talks, no one even dares.
Outside this secure place,
Numerous of people are running with haste.
Many are screaming, crying
Hundreds are left, thousands are dying.
Men can be heard, shouting orders so clear,
If only the others can be quiet and hear.
The men in uniform so bravely arrive,
They help our land live long and strive.
I feel more safe when I see them,
Like God has given us a little piece of heaven.
They are my heroes in uniform.
Guardians of this country,
They stand tall,
Brave and courageous,
High above all.
Ready to fight,
Knowing what they’re doing is right.
God bless you,
Brave Americans,
From the land of liberty.
You’re all heroes, heroes to me.
We stay longer than usual in the room,
All fearing we have met our doom.
Now, tears are streaked upon all our faces,
Of all the days, all the times, all the places.
Our eyes are still glued on the TV,
Completely stunned by what we repetitively see.
We watch this tragedy happens over and over again,
I feel as though I may go insane.
Seeing all those lives lost in a second,
I wish it was someone simply playing pretend.
Many people sick and mourning,
I wonder if we had any warning.
Was there anything we could have done to prevent this?
All these lives will truly be missed.
The girl whose father was in that building today
Had no choice but to stay.
He couldn’t get out fast enough,
Now that girls life is extremely rough.
After a while they discover his remains,
The girl’s mother is so happy her tears fall like rain.
She puts together a funeral in his name.
When that day arrives
Friends and family come to celebrate his life.
The girl who watched the building fall down,
Has a hard time to make a smile out of her frown.
Rock cold in the iron immobility of death.
A family mourns over a statue, once alive.
Tears dropped on a casket, fell like rain.
Flowers lay around, a final good bye.
The girl to be strong for her mom, but she’s too weak.
Tearing and sobbing; trying to speak.
A river of words and drowning passions,
Necks stretched forward with listening ears,
reliving the life of a man who to them was so dear.
Words of the man’s achievements dance around the room,
flying by the ears of his family.
Clutching her teddy bear, the little girl whispers
“Goodbye daddy, I can’t wait to see you again”
and places the bear on his casket, a little present for him in heaven.
She turns away from him and walks back to her seat.
Half of these people she does not know, she does not meet.
They all talk great things about her father,
But to her the words are more of a bother.
They did not know him like she did,
Pressed against her mother, her face she hid
She was scared to listen, scared to know
Anything of her father to make him less than a hero.
She touched the locket he gave to her on her tenth birthday
And to it she would say
A little rhyme he had taught her
She repeats it and began to stir.
As tears slide down her cheek,
She remembers all the lives lost the previous week.
She thinks of how their families must feel,
And with this thought came a deal.
She will live her life to make her daddy proud,
Never once will she go with the crowd.
This friend of mine, a beautiful girl,
Makes her dad a promise, to change the world.
She takes her life day by day,
Thinking about what her daddy would say.
And with this a genius was born
Now she can think her dad and not mourn.


The world is full of suffering; it is also full of the overcoming of it.
-Helen Keller

Trampoline fun.

Almost everyone has a trampoline accident story.

This is mine.

My best friend Katherine, her neighbor Maddie, and I were at Maddie's house on her trampoline. It was summer and really freaking hot so we decided to go in her pool for a bit. I guess we didn't really think things through but the next thing we know we are jumping on the trampoline wet.

Just moments before Katherine said "I really hope we don't fall."

Maddie was still in the pool and Katherine was just getting off the trampoline to go back in the pool when I hit the side of the trampoline and slipped off. She didn't have any net on the trampoline so I fell off the dang thing. I fell into a chair, sideways, that we used to get on and off. Though that was funny enough, the chair decided it didn't like me and tried to kick me out of it. The darn thing fell back wards and sent me rolling out of it onto the concrete and grass area.

This was one of the best days in my life because it was so hilarious. You may laugh because I sure as heck did!.

Maddie and Katherine just looked at me and started laughing. Between gasps Katherine managed to ask if I was alright, since I was still laying there. I couldn't answer because I was laughing to hard. She then fell over from laughing too hard.

A few days... or maybe even a week later Katherine got her serving of Trampoline Madness. Maddie's dad was out side throwing the football to us. Katherine was on the trampoline catching everyone that was thrown her way. Maddie's dad threw the ball a little too much to the left and Katherine, being the "I can catch it," type of person, jumped off the trampoline to catch the ball. She jumped straight into a bush! This was my time to deliver the "are you alright" line. The only problem was that I was laughing to hard to even say that.

Man, best friends are amazing.

The Dance Stories

Dancing- it is a great thing when done right... but when done wrong it can be embarrassing and everyone will remember you. These are some experiences I have had with songs and dances.


>Living in a crazy town in New York, I was the minority. The white girl. Everyone thought I couldn't dance, the typical stereotype. As a result of this, I hardly ever danced. My 6th and 7th grade dances were spent helping run the actual event and watching everyone dance. 8th grade, everything changed. My friends thought it would be funny seeing me dance, so they convinced me to try and dance with them. When I finally gave in and walked on the floor with them everyone was looking at me. After the song ended all I heard was "Damn, white girl can dance."

>[Anthony] a guy I liked my freshman year, called me the last minute and asked me to go to his military ball. I, of course, said yes and had a blast. We danced for a great deal of time. After the dance, his father picked us up and asked me if he did in fact dance. I said yes, and as soon as Anthony got in the car he stated "I danced the Margarita." Though this was an honest mistake, he hadn't realized the difference between the Macarena and Margarita.

>There is always one song you don't know the words to but try to sing it anyways. At my freshman homecoming, I was dancing with a group of friends and kept seeing one guy walk around the floor. After talking to him for a bit I convinced him to dance with me. We danced from 8-12. Almost the whole time! During the song "Smack That" he claimed to know the song, and started singing. He knew about 35 percent of the song. (NOTE! this was when the song first came out and became big) After that I teased him for not knowing that song. Though he got me back when I claimed to know one and messed up almost every other word.

As a child, what show(s) did you watch the MOST?

Flames From a Flower

Flames From a Flower